Wednesday, November 21, 2007

joy! :D

hello! :D:D

havent been blogging in a while, BUT NO WORRIES, i'm still alive! oh yay! haha.

hmm, everything seems fine now! :D really thank God for uncle clinton, auntie stella, amos and sam for being here! they really brought my spirit up by like HEAPS! :D hahaha.

the year is coming to an end, it's time to go home. it's time to reflect. i think God's goodness is so awesome. He brought me here, He walked with me and when i'm tired or lost, He carried me. How awesome is that! :D hahaha. i don't know what to expect when i go back to singapore or what to expect when i come back here again next year. but i know that my future is in His hands, and with all these uncertainty and doubts, i still must hold on to that hope that Christ has given us. :D

oh, on the really good note, i'm gg home a week earlier! :D yay. haha. i'm happy! :D i save more money and i get to spend more time in singapore. i reckon it would be good for me to be home now as well. the presence of being around will definitely bring spirits up.

Dear Lord, please keep all my family members healthy. I know You have a purpose in everything, so I believe that You have Your reasons.

heh, my last post said i passed my practical driving test, this post says I GOT MY LICENSE! :D haha. WOOHOO! :D but wow, after i stopped driving, it seems as though i actually have more money. driving did take up a lot of my money man. haha. oh wells, IT'S ALL OVER NOW! :D

okayokay, i'm gg to rest for a while, then start doing work. one test and one written report! and then it marks the end of the sch week, weekends are for PLAYING! :D hahaha. esp since amos and sam are there! hahaha. then exam week, and then, BREAK! :D

shopping shopping shopping! :D

Thursday, November 8, 2007

this is why i don't sleep so much anymore...

hello!! ((:

hahaha. yes yes. once again i'm back to blog! WHOOPEEE!! hahaha. i've been blogging quite a bit eh! 3 posts in 8 days! hahaha.

anw, i miss my fat boy! :( he was so dao last sunday it's irritating! hahaha. but oh wells. haha. i guess fat boys always get their way! hahaha. he's SOOO cute! (:

i'm watching so you think you can dance now, and oh my goodness, THEY DANCE WELL! they really do! hahaha. it makes me miss dancing too! :(

i've got a math test tmr and i'm supposed to be studying. haha. but i can't seem to leave the tv screen. haha. they're TOO TOO good! hahaha.

oh yah, i got three conditional offers alr. but then i do want to stay in perth. i guess it is really where God wants me to be. and for now, i'm honestly pretty unclear. one minute, i feel as though GOd wants me here, the other minute, i feel as though GOd wants me in melbourne. then once in a while, sydney will come into the picture. haha. TOO TROUBLESOME. TOO TROUBLESOME! haha. yeah, i think the degree, ultimately, really doesnt matter. it is just a piece of paper kinda thing. but what is important is where He wants me to be. so now, i have to just make sure that all my results are good. so that i can do well to get into any of the universities that gave me the conditional offers. i've been doing pretty alright in school as well. so i'm really happy. yay! (:

God, work Your ways.

man, i've been driving like man as well. yep! I PASSED MY PRACTICAL TEST! ((: WOOHOOO!! hahaha. so i'm clocking my hours now. it's been taking up a lot of energy man. it definitely has. i've been so tired recently. but it's ending soon. ending soon! i'm going to take my HPT on monday next week. so very good very very good. i don't have to drive like everyday anymore. so GOOD. ahah. i'm really excited too. i'll have a driver's license man! hahaha :D awesomeee.. hahaha.

i'm one month away from going home! oh my goodness. SO FASTTT!! exactly one month away. 8 of december at this time, i'll already be home! :D yay. yay. yay. its like, i think 4 more sunday and I'M HOME. so fast. honestly, i can't wait! i'm so excited and happy. but that is because i'm still quite sure that i'm coming back. if i am not coming back to perth, because of what so ever, i will be pretty sad to leave. oh wells. we'll see. haha. i'm sad that i will never be able to see that taylors college ever again though. like, we have so much fun in taylors. doing retarded stuff and laughing about everything under the sun. i'll definitely visit taylors next year. since estelle, glenn, tim, david, nathalia and nooch are still there.

today's post is super random. haha. oh wells. i really wana go shopping man! hahaha. cannot take it. hahaha. im like thinking about it dreaming about it and what not! hahaha.

once again, i'm craving for bubble tea! :( i want a super person to bring my cravings to me when i have them! hahaha. c'mon c'mon! hahaha.

tell me where You want me to do.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

look ahead, push on

just visited singyen's blog and i saw a video of 4a'06. haha. those bunch of boys never fail to make me laugh, i laughed so hard when i was watching the videos. haha. the amount of crazy things they did, the countless of videos, the weirdest of the weirdest people, it was really an EXTREMELY fun time!

i really miss those times. the familar hall way, the steps that we have to take every morning to get to class, the morning 4A gang who will gather at the maccas tables, the way we took our own sweet time to walk to the parade square for PE, the way we piss our teachers off and the list just goes on and on and on. most of all, i really miss the clique. the countless KFC meals we had together at great world city, the crazy amount of food we eat when we visit redhill market, treating each other's houses as though they were our own, the laughter, the sorrows, we've seen it all. i am pretty upset that i wasnt able to actually collect my O level results with them. after working hard (quite) together for 2 years, i missed the day where everything came to an end.

but yeah, time to look ahead and push on! haha. as much as those times were awesome, the time before us will get even better. when we all get our own boyfriends, and start to see whether our predictions were right! haha. i really can't wait to go back to singapore and hang out with all of you! :D we're gonna have a bomb!! ((: we definitely would.

back to my written report. last section and i'm done!

Lord, help me to be more sensitive to the people around me. Help me to watch what i say and help me to be more aware of my surroundings. It is the last lap of the race. 2007 is finally coming to an end. The best year eve, but the worst as well. Through it all, I saw Your faithfulness, I saw Your glory. Thank You Lord.
Last 5 weeks of school, we can still make a difference. Help us Daddy, to be a family. To be ONE in YOUR love. to be ONE in YOUR name. I believe it will happen. I believe You will still change lives through us.
Help us focus more on You and less about ourselves.
Stop finding faults of others, but look at ourselves.
Stop being critical and start to love others.
Stop doing what is sinful in His eyes and do what will glorify Him.
Edify each other through His love and His grace.
It is not about you, but about Him.
So CHANGE.

Auntie Stella's family is coming on the 16 of nov! i can't wait to see them! uncle clinton, auntie stella, amos, sam and of cos, baby elisha! :D

You gave Your life.
This is how much You love us.

Thursday, November 1, 2007

come and take control

o uits all a mystery. we never know when things are going to happen and more so, why they happened. i think through so many months of being away from family, it really thought me how to treasure them even more and love them even more. friends always fail you, friends always forget you, but family never once left you behind, family never once forgot about you, family never once leave you standing there alone.

all of a sudden, emotions are rising, feelings are coming out and i think it is a good thing. although it might not seem like it now, at the end of the road when we all look back at what had happened, we're going to say that it is truly the day God has made! (:

girls will always be girls. with cliques, with mentally that goes like "oh, i'll just hang out with her a little more cause maybe her nose is a bit sharper", with attitudes that say i talk to her a bit more among this whole group because i'm closer to her. and then to cover it all, we're just going to add a girls are girls. we will always be like that, so don't blame us. cliques are cliques, and you'll definitely end up being closer to one person just a little bit more. but i think we can do something to change it. be more aware of other people and think about how they feel when cliques come out or when you accidentally forgets someone. think about what if your friends accidentally forget about you, how would you feel? then when you forget about a person, don't just brush it off by saying i'm sorry or it's bound to happen. but to really start putting in an effort to remember that person.

i think being close does not equal to i must ALWAYS spend time with that person or i only talk to that person. as long as the friendship is authentic, i think it's okay not spending so much time together. we can meet up one year without even talking to each other and still be able to hold a fun and interesting conversation, that's true friendship.

i have loads of my mind now. but its hard to actually express it in words. haha.

just one more thing, i think we need to start finding our identity in Christ. so what if friends forget us, so what if we're not included as much as others, so what if we're just not the same. we're made perfect in God's eyes. we're made the way we are. friends might not love us because of it, but God does. He loves every single part of us and He desires more of us. when all the people around fall, stand firm. when all the people around seem to be nowhere near when you need them the most, remember that God's ALWAYS ALWAYS there. take courage girl! stand up and stand out! :D

yst's cell was pretty good. and i think cell for this whole semester has been awesome. God has been doing wonders in the cell's life! :D what is ahead is far greater than what anyone of us can imagine. (:

too much has happened. in this place where we somehow not know what is before us, in the this place everything just seems so strange and odd, dear Lord, i ask that You take control. tensions, unhappiness and what not are rising. but i am going to believe in You and You only.

our God is real.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

bleahhhh

mannn, i've got an essay due tmr, and i can't seem to write anything out! so sad! :( but then, i dont really feel like, scared or anything. hahaha. oh wells. i think i'm gg to sleep soon and then wake up to complete it! i am sleepyyy!! heh.

on the awesome note, TMR'S FRIDAY! ((: fridays are always good and happy i must say! at the end of each week, i see God's faithfulness in my life and the people's lives around me. time after time, i forget about my purpose of coming. time after time, i forget about God. but through it all, God has never forgotten about me. the year in taylors is coming to an end, there were many things that i regret doing/ not doing. but yep, i guess we all have to move on with life and not be caught up with the past.

my term ends of the 3rd of december! but im only going back on the 8th! unless, dad and mom are nice enough to pay 100 plus bucks to change my ticket and abt 300 bucks for church camp. haha. but then, i don't think i want to spend so much money. so oh wells. its perth until 8th and no church camp this year! i'm okay about it. it's just sad that when i go back to church for the first sunday after SOOO many sundays, there'll be so few people left! i guess that's how its gonna be.

hmm, i think things are getting better in general. in many ways as well. in terms of friendships, studies, family and just everything everything! ((: i wont say things are awesome. but hey, things cant be awesome all the time i supposed. apart from that, I'VE BEEN SPENDING MANY MANY MANY HOURS WITH MY FATTY KID! :D hahaha. just talking to him and playing with him! makes me think of the kids back in grace! and of cos, my always so sweet and adorable dorlisa! really miss her. i do hope those kids remember me when i go back, or else i'll be really sad. hahaha.

okay, enough of the blah-ings. i'm going off to maybe do more work or sleep. i'll see my mood. hahaha.

OH! and, I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST! ((: yay. i'm starting to clock my hours and hopefully get my full license in due time! hahaha. thank God i passed. cause honestly, i thought i couldnt. hahaha. longgg story. but yep! i'll be as safe as i can! :D hahaha.

tmr: FNL ((: EXCITING EXCITING! :D

more bubble tea as well i hope! (:

Saturday, October 20, 2007

pure boredom

hello people. yes. i get super bored super quickly lately! i don't really understand why. nowadays, i need to be constantly entertained or else i'll go mad. i know i get bored really easily and stuff. but recently, it just got super bad. hahaha. oh wells. i keep trying to find entertainment here and there. but msn has recently became a super duperly lousy entertain because people are so busy. so sad.. then again, work's coming in. so i might get a bit more entertained by my work. haha.

yep. we've entered into week 4 of this term. one month has passed since i first started term 4. time really flies. i think time passes dem fast since i came. it's super scary. but good good! that means i'm going back in 6 weeks. 6 more weeks. 6 more weeks! i still rmb how i told people i've got another 14 more weeks to go, 13 more weeks, so on and so forth. and it seemed so long then. but now, it's like JUST 6 MORE WEEKS! then i go back to mum and dad. i go back to my brother and grandmother. i go back to a place where i truly call home. ((: i really really can't wait.

oh man, i got SOOOOOO SOOOO SOOOO SOOOO BORED TODAY! i did like the most random thing. i wanted to stay home and just chill for the whole day right, but i had to go out cause there was house inspection or something like that. i got pretty annoyed. so i called like people i usually wont call and like did heaps of random stuff. haha. that was how bored i was! hahaha. oh wells. but time still passed pretty quickly. heh.

i've been thinking a lot recently. hahaha. too much sometimes. heh. oh wells.

oh yah! theresa's getting married today! man, i wished i could be there! :( best wishes to them both and i know God's going to work miracles through them as a married couple! :D

i'm off! tata people!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

interesting...

yep. interesting is the word to describe things. i don't know where everybody else stands on certain things. but at this point in time, i sure know where i stand.

after a couple of weeks of whatever we have been doing in cell, i think i've learnt a lot. not just by listening but also by going through certain things. in the midst of all this, i've just got one thing to say to everybody, for those whom i've hurt, for those whom i've been mean to, i'm very sorry. and this sorry doesnt just come because i have to do it. but it comes from deep within. in line with whatever we have been studying, things did get pretty interesting. things did get pretty nasty. i've got issues to settle. so do everyone else. i guess we all have issues to settle.

time to stop looking at other people and time to start looking at ourselves. are we good enough to tell other people about their faults? are we good enough to tell others to change? are we even good enough to be alive on this earth?

after reading several blogs and looking about stuff, i think all it takes is love. i think all we need is really love. love that is centered around Christ. love that will really allows people to give grace, love that allows people to understand. are we lacking such love today? i wonder...

i'm talking and talking and talking. ahah. in the midst of all this, i know one thing - that is my God's good and my God's real. i asked loads of questions today. questions that show that i'm doubting. but after all that, at least i'm still very very sure of one thing that my God loves. my God really really loves. and that's good enough. because with His love, i know i can do all things. with His love, i know i will have joy. with His love, i know things will fall in place.

there are other things too. like which university i should go to, if i should stay in perth and if i stay in perth, should i continue staying at where i am now. someone's pretty sure i'm staying! hahaha. with all the weird incentives, i'll be quite sad to leave too. at this moment, i think i'm most likely staying unless God's calling me else where. ahah. i've got such wonderful incentives like mitch will buy me a present for birthday next year, anthony will do his burping thing (and it increases as my stay in perth increases! haha.), i havent been to ciao, and so on and so forth. haha. we'll see. dad wants me to stay in perth too! so maybe perth it is! haha. applications will come back maybe end of december. will decide then. deciding now is a bit too early too. heh.

oh, i don't want to go to school. but i have to! missed too many lessons. ahah. so yep! i'll go to school tmr! then there's driving. then probably head to either the city or uni, depends on my mood. then a pretty exciting cell! last cell for this whole sem. the year is coming to an end. freaking.

so today's conclusion: my God loves. ((:

My Savior loves, my Savior lives.
My Savior is always there for me
My God, He was. My God, He is.
My God is always gonna be.