come and take control

o uits all a mystery. we never know when things are going to happen and more so, why they happened. i think through so many months of being away from family, it really thought me how to treasure them even more and love them even more. friends always fail you, friends always forget you, but family never once left you behind, family never once forgot about you, family never once leave you standing there alone.

all of a sudden, emotions are rising, feelings are coming out and i think it is a good thing. although it might not seem like it now, at the end of the road when we all look back at what had happened, we're going to say that it is truly the day God has made! (:

girls will always be girls. with cliques, with mentally that goes like "oh, i'll just hang out with her a little more cause maybe her nose is a bit sharper", with attitudes that say i talk to her a bit more among this whole group because i'm closer to her. and then to cover it all, we're just going to add a girls are girls. we will always be like that, so don't blame us. cliques are cliques, and you'll definitely end up being closer to one person just a little bit more. but i think we can do something to change it. be more aware of other people and think about how they feel when cliques come out or when you accidentally forgets someone. think about what if your friends accidentally forget about you, how would you feel? then when you forget about a person, don't just brush it off by saying i'm sorry or it's bound to happen. but to really start putting in an effort to remember that person.

i think being close does not equal to i must ALWAYS spend time with that person or i only talk to that person. as long as the friendship is authentic, i think it's okay not spending so much time together. we can meet up one year without even talking to each other and still be able to hold a fun and interesting conversation, that's true friendship.

i have loads of my mind now. but its hard to actually express it in words. haha.

just one more thing, i think we need to start finding our identity in Christ. so what if friends forget us, so what if we're not included as much as others, so what if we're just not the same. we're made perfect in God's eyes. we're made the way we are. friends might not love us because of it, but God does. He loves every single part of us and He desires more of us. when all the people around fall, stand firm. when all the people around seem to be nowhere near when you need them the most, remember that God's ALWAYS ALWAYS there. take courage girl! stand up and stand out! :D

yst's cell was pretty good. and i think cell for this whole semester has been awesome. God has been doing wonders in the cell's life! :D what is ahead is far greater than what anyone of us can imagine. (:

too much has happened. in this place where we somehow not know what is before us, in the this place everything just seems so strange and odd, dear Lord, i ask that You take control. tensions, unhappiness and what not are rising. but i am going to believe in You and You only.

our God is real.