wonders.

i wonder... how can she says all those stuff, yet act that way? self-righteous?

i wonder... how can she actually not bother what others say about her when it isn't just an individual who is saying that?

i wonder... if she is who she is, why on earth does she reacts to things like that?

i wonder... why does she think she's so great and might but yet still say the things she say?

i wonder... i wonder... i wonder...

maybe at the end of the day, it's about looking at yourself first. we are all not perfect, so we all have flaws. how much can i actually endure. i can't stand you for nuts. cause you're unbelievable, in a very bad way. ah. use-r.

haha, okay, that aside... i was so frustrated about it. but oh wells, suck it in and move on. all i can do is to pray that God will touch her heart and convict her. i am definitely in no position to say anything. i'll just pray as how someone out there might be praying for me for the exact same thing.

about self-righteousness, it really hits me. how although He is the same, we interpret Him in our own ways. so does it make her more self-righteous, hence her God is just not as gracious as mine? i don't think so. because in the same way, she will think that because i'm doing all this right in the exact way He wants me to do it, this is what i deserve and i am fine yet for wanjun, she's aiyoh, just bad? where is that equilibrium? that line or that image which we all draw up in our minds, it differs so much. so which is real and true? i wonder...

i've got two more weeks in singapore, so fast! :( yet i'm lazing around at home. i must say, this is heaven. hahaha. sitting around everyday and not doing anything. hahaha. i seriously love this! :D:D i'm such a bum. oh wells.

once again, i think i'll still stick to that thing that i said. let today be the deciding day. says something more which needs answering, then okay. or else, i guess, this is it.